When life knocks you down, calmly get back up, smile, and say. "You hit like a bitch."

I get high with a little help………..


When you have renal failure you don’t sleep very well. I have not slept well for a year now. My Nephrologist prescribed 20mg of Trepiline. So for about 6 months I have been taking Trepiline. But I noticed that the effects don’t last. So I started taking it with one Syndol before bed, then after a while two Syndols before bed. This could not go on. I’m not really allowed to take Syndol. You know, because of no kidney function. Yay me! Anyway, I then decided to go for sleeping pills. I’ve been putting of using the sleeping pills because I really didn’t want to get dependent on them. It’s such a pain weaning off them. A very S.L.O.W. process. But I succumbed.

So now I take sleeping pills, which work really well. Until they don’t. Like last night and the night before. I drink the pill and patiently wait to get sleepy. Only, I don’t get sleepy, I get high. Great stuff! In the beginning. Not so great after an hour of feeling really drunk. It does get a bit tedious. So now I either push through. Getting high every evening. Not the worst idea I’ve had. Or I change meds. Not really up for that. Getting hold of my Dr is a royal pain in the arse! I do have his cel nr and I do sms him or occasionally phone him, and he’s very sweet and always does what I ask him. But I feel bad. And his receptionist is not a total bitch, lets just say, she would rather not. Anything. At all. Ever.

So now I weigh up my options. I might just stick with my current pills. At least I have a short party in my head before I conk out. And that’s not all that bad. As long as it doesn’t go on and on I think I shall cope. And enjoy. it’s not everyday one gets high with a little help on Drs orders.

I will lift mine eyes unto the pills.  Almost everyone takes them, from the humble aspirin to the multi-coloured, king-sized three deckers, which put you to sleep, wake you up, stimulate and soothe you all in one.  It is an age of pills.  ~Malcolm Muggeridge, 1962


5 thoughts on “I get high with a little help………..

  1. it’s hard to deal with but keep you can make it I am on pain meds been on them for as long as I can remember but I’m finnaly where I need to be with my meds

  2. At least you’re sleeping a bit now? I can’t wait to see full you like your new doc!

  3. Ok let’s try again. I can’t wait to see how you like you’re new doc.

  4. Oh for goodness sake!


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